Today is Earthquake day.
A lot has changed here since that day. There has been incredible strides in the improvement of people's quality of life since then but there is still so far to go.
Sometimes I start to feel sorry for myself and then I think about how I have nothing to complain about.
I know God gives us all our own crosses but how can I possibly complain about loneliness or rejection or being overwhelmed when 36 seconds can change history and lives forever?
Haiti is resilient, it's a lesson for me. In every face I encounter I know there is a story behind it.
And chances are those stories are something more than feeling lonely or sad that you only got to go the pool instead of being invited to somebody's bbq...
There's a lot of growing left in this girl and I feel like i'm up to the challenge.
If Haiti can survive the amount of struggle and hardship life keeps throwing at it
1) These are some stubborn people
and 2) I can learn from them to see each day as an extraordinary gift from God that should be treasured and made better by my being His reflection...
Here's to me remembering to remembering what's truly important in life and seeing Christ in my brothers and sisters and also myself.
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Saturday, January 4, 2014
When jealousy rears its ugly head...or Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all!
So what I realize is that I get jealous easily.
Sometimes it's for legitimate reasons but more often than naught it's for the stupidest things, i.e. someone else's piece of meat from the lunch bin look more appetizing and more like "meat" than the piece that I choose. For goodness sake's, I CHOOSE IT!!!
It's not like I want them to have my mysterious piece of cartilage so I can have their seemingly meaty piece of ankle, I genuinely want us both to be able to eat lunch and enjoy it...as much as is possible considering it's likely bits of neck and perhaps tail?, but I just want to have something I will enjoy too.
It's a fatal flaw I think. Something I seriously need to nip in the bud. Who enjoys passive aggressive nasty jealous person?
To be fair though, sometimes my jealousy, while not ok, is understandable.
I'm jealous of people who have lives...it's something difficult to obtain around here.
And watching someone constantly walk out the door and say "Hey, I have plans...night" while I sit at home with my most likely only my rabid street dog to keep me company, I can't help but feel like saying "take me! I don't want to sit here by myself! I want to hang out with people too!" and feel not just a little bit jealous that other people have found that balance of work and play down here.
But I can't. At least not without it coming out bitchy. Maybe what I really need to work on is sincerity...
I understand that not everyone is like me so I shouldn't project my own needs on other people. I should stop resenting people for not meeting mine. It's really hard though!!!!
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I love taking care of people and would love to be surrounded by friends who feel the same about me, but this is not real life here. There is no choosing people to surround yourself because you pretty much have the lunch menu at a fancy restaurant to choose from in terms of people to include in your life...limited options anyone?
This has actually taught me a good amount about myself. I try to remember to give and not expect, to love without receiving back, to see Christ in others so that they can see Him in me...dude that's ridiculously hard though!
For my New Year's resolution though I will try to be less selfish, jealous, and give to make others happy without expecting people to return the favor.
In lighter news, I took the dog for a lovely hike in the mountains on Christmas...I thought "what a nice little treat it would be for my sad apartment bound pup!" Famous.last.words.
Long story short my dog suffers from an extreme case car-sickness...which also give her horrible diarrhea...
And as it turns out car detailing is slightly more expensive then you would think around here and impossible to come by on a holiday...
With that I will say Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!
Sometimes it's for legitimate reasons but more often than naught it's for the stupidest things, i.e. someone else's piece of meat from the lunch bin look more appetizing and more like "meat" than the piece that I choose. For goodness sake's, I CHOOSE IT!!!
It's not like I want them to have my mysterious piece of cartilage so I can have their seemingly meaty piece of ankle, I genuinely want us both to be able to eat lunch and enjoy it...as much as is possible considering it's likely bits of neck and perhaps tail?, but I just want to have something I will enjoy too.
It's a fatal flaw I think. Something I seriously need to nip in the bud. Who enjoys passive aggressive nasty jealous person?
To be fair though, sometimes my jealousy, while not ok, is understandable.
I'm jealous of people who have lives...it's something difficult to obtain around here.
And watching someone constantly walk out the door and say "Hey, I have plans...night" while I sit at home with my most likely only my rabid street dog to keep me company, I can't help but feel like saying "take me! I don't want to sit here by myself! I want to hang out with people too!" and feel not just a little bit jealous that other people have found that balance of work and play down here.
But I can't. At least not without it coming out bitchy. Maybe what I really need to work on is sincerity...
I understand that not everyone is like me so I shouldn't project my own needs on other people. I should stop resenting people for not meeting mine. It's really hard though!!!!
.jpg)
I love taking care of people and would love to be surrounded by friends who feel the same about me, but this is not real life here. There is no choosing people to surround yourself because you pretty much have the lunch menu at a fancy restaurant to choose from in terms of people to include in your life...limited options anyone?This has actually taught me a good amount about myself. I try to remember to give and not expect, to love without receiving back, to see Christ in others so that they can see Him in me...dude that's ridiculously hard though!
For my New Year's resolution though I will try to be less selfish, jealous, and give to make others happy without expecting people to return the favor.
In lighter news, I took the dog for a lovely hike in the mountains on Christmas...I thought "what a nice little treat it would be for my sad apartment bound pup!" Famous.last.words.
Long story short my dog suffers from an extreme case car-sickness...which also give her horrible diarrhea...
And as it turns out car detailing is slightly more expensive then you would think around here and impossible to come by on a holiday...
With that I will say Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!
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